Anger and Adoration

Donnerstag, 25. September 2008

Later, when I thought back, I always had the feeling that it might had come different and it might had exist a better solution than the one which was choosen from fate, if you believe in things like this. At the beginning there were only 3 persons, closely put together to see what would happen. As human beings they were they immediatly started to get in contact with each other and created relationships. There was Adelaide, nice little woman, very feminine behavior and looking into the world with a strong feeling that there is always something good in a person and a God, who reigns in heaven. And there was Bernhard, very masculine behavior, always the strong wish to produce himself and make impression to the woman-folks, therefore a bit difficult to handle. And the 3rd one was Catherine, nearly the opposite of Adelaide, always wanting to be accepted by her work and rational thoughts and opinion, denying her whole female side.

Now, the reaction started, A was interested in B, B tried to get in contact with C, and C liked A, but immediatly forbid herself for she had had enough troubles with similar trials in former times and didn´t want to become involved again. So we had one person doing nothing (C), one person producing himself as masculine as possible (B) and one just communicating as usual but dreaming and admiring more and more (A). Consequently there was a circle and yet no couple was produced, even all of them wished it in their inner souls and allowed them - more or less - to find out more about the status of the specific person. For example B took a seat next to C and made his arm touch hers or he stood often beside her and contacted her with his body. But that was the only softness he allowed himself, in speech and discussions he behaved very rude and arrogant to her, so that she never found out about his real feelings for her. A on the other side started with little presents and friendly talks, about their working process and as he didn´t had real feelings for her at this time, she was accepted as a sort of "good-fellow" you easily can talk with about everything. A valued that as a sign of sympathy and reaction to her own heart-status and was glad to have success in this affair. She soon called him "friend" when he still was involved in his trials going further with C.

At this point we were very curious to see how this might be going on, and if we would have a couple in the end, still a circle or nothing or some quarrel. We bet, really, even it wasn´t allowed, but what else could we do in our position?

C reacted at the beginning similar to us, she just observed the two, noticing immediatly A´s feelings for B and that B was not sensitive enough even to notice it. It killed her heart to see, that she herself had no place in this constellation, being blind for B´s avances and not able to accept them, anyway. So the only thing she could do was to give B a hint, and when she reached this point of thinking she immediatly did so. There was a terrible quarrel between C and B, some unnecessary subject at work they weren´t able to manage together and nearly at the end, high-emotionly just before leaving the room and smashing the door violently behind her she shouted at him, how blind he must be not noticing A´s love and intimacies she offers to him.

Bang - it was like a hit on his head which suddenly opened a totally new view to the situation. Hearing C´s last words like an echo in his ears, staring at the closed door in front of him, he only stood there unable to catch a sensible thought, seing only A in a glamorous light, splendid and attractive and so unfamiliar he hardly could believe that he knows her. And what did he indeed know from her? He decided to find out immediatly, forgetting quarrel, love and hate and C.

So in the end we had a very clear result of our test-proceeding: Putting 3 people together will made you 1 couple and 1 being left alone. But, as I said, there were other possibilities thinkable, e.g. B and C or even A and C, why in our case it had to be A and B we can neither explain nor imagine - fate perhaps?

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