I´d like to tell you a story, just a little one with no real ending because nobody knows what future will bring so at the moment the end is still open.

In this story there´ll be a man of about 23 years, well, no, make him a little older, 25 and another man about the same age. They are friends since their time at school, where the story begins: One of the boys, I´ll call him Matthieu, is the typical outsider - quiet, likes reading, doesn´t like playing football at the playground with the others, isn´t good at sports, etc. and has no friends except Jim, the complete opposite as it seems - he´s always talking and laughing, having a crowd of boys around him which admire him and would go straight through the fire for him if it would be necessary. Normaly it isn´t because Jim is strong and sportive and needs nobody´s help. Matthieu has to accept the popularity of his friend. At the beginning it´s not easy seing all the others around him and seing how easy and quite natural Jim is everybodys darling, he is jealous, wants to go far far away and cut the friendship immediatly. But there are moments where he feels the speciality of their relationship. Something extraordinary he isn´t able to explain.

They grow up, Matthieu has learned how to handle the friends character, he accepts Jim´s other friendships because he knows that their friendship is out of compare and nothing will change it. There´s the time of first love affairs, a time when Jim adores every week another girl, hoping that there´ll be more than kissing and embracing at last, a time where Matthieu falls madly in love to a boy two classes above who has not the slightest interest. Later, at the beginning of their students time they both laugh about these "events".

Later on Jim has a relationship with a girl in his course which lasts nearly 1 1/2 year, then it is over, nobody knows exactly why. Matthieu doesn´t find someone - as expected, it´s probably his character, his destiny of an outsider. They study in different towns but they don´t loose contact, they write and one or two times a year they visit each other. There´s a change in Jim, he´s calmer now, not the talkative alpha-personality any more, perhaps we can say, he´s more serious, asking more philosophical questions about life and god, himself and love, etc. The relationship between them is even more closer, if this is possible, they could talk the whole night, never being without interesting theme. They havn´t always the same opinion, quite normal, but whatever they are discussing they know they are friends and nothing can break their friendship.

And then there´s this meeting after several months of rare contact, Matthieu is in Jim´s region and visits him spontaneous. Jim´s full of excitement overtalkative as in his early youth with burning skin and lots of news: Five months ago he has met Peter at a party and head over heels fallen in love and since two months everything is clear between them, they are a couple. He smiles his inner happyness, pride and luck out of every pore, alightning the world around. And Matthieu strangely feels that this is exactly what he has known all the time but didn´t want to see. He has closed his eyes for the most evident facts. A veil is falling between them, no, not a veil a wall of solid stone, black and no chance to push through. He remembers how easily he was able to accept his love affairs and even the relationship with the girl from Jim´s course, there was never jealousy because deep in his inner he had known that Jim´s heart wasn´t touched - long before Jim for himself knew. Now Peter will take Matthieu´s place.

Later he´ll manage to laugh about it - maybe.