Anger and Adoration

Samstag, 8. November 2008

I´ve made aquitance with a person today, without speaking a word, just looking at him and in return he at me, I never thought it could be so easy to get in contact with a human being. I´ve the experience that it´s normally quite easy making friends with any sort of animals but with men? I´m really surprised.

There´s a new face besides me, who is it, why havn´t I seen her before? Oh, one moment, it´s not true, I knew her, I´ve seen her one and then in course, but only from distance, she never came along to me as all the others in the course did, smiling at me, kidding, I know they all love me, o.k. perhaps I´m a little superstitious and only half of them love me, smile... I´m a womanizer!

Maria and Daimon were very early at university, today Maria had her oral exam and Daimon had come with her - as usual - and would wait for her during her exam, he knew that it won´t last long, because Maria was well-prepared, she had learned day after day and had told him hour after hour everything she knew and it was a lot. Not afraid of the result, he was sure it would be certainly a B but she also could get easily an A. He smiled into the lovely day, it was nearly summer and quite hot, surprisingly for this country sunburning was very intense. In such moments he was completely content with himself and the world and looked with hope and excitement into the future.

Well, she is a serious person, I suspect, there are her sad dark eyes with something in it I´m not able to capture. I´m no friend of many words so I take her hand to make her feel better, oh look, she smiles, how wonderful, what a success, and what serious tenderness is now in her eyes, I know we can become friends if she like, well, I´m sure she like it as much as I do. But look at her hand, her fingers how interesting, how thin but full of power, it´s a lovely game, I´m looking at hers, examining them quite carefully and she, somewhat ashamed or perhaps only uncomfortable because of the heat who makes our hands quite sweaty, trying to escape my examination. Oh, how I love it, I hope the other "examination" in the room in front of our place will last very very very long... and as I always think: friendship needs no great words, only the right feeling.

It´s a miracle, I can´t believe it, what is this, I do not recognize myself. I always have stand at distance, there was no need I thought to come closer, to search contact I would perhaps regret later. There were always so many of our course around him, he is an alpha-personality, no wonder with this charming smile and his initiative way of getting straight forward in contact with one, nearly everyone was struggling to come in closer relationship to him, so why I, too? There was really no necessity - I thought, but now? It´s a miracle and I thank god that I could experienced it, I´ll always remember.

"Thank you for nursing him, it was quite a relieve not to have him with me in the oral exam." Maria took Daimon on her arms and together they went their way home...